Right, so I saw the folks saying didn't even bother to post a defence and here is my reason: there was no point. I've not felt needed in the chat for the simple reason that for the most part there hasn't BEEN a chat. Everytime I have come on to the site to see what it was like chat has been pretty much dead. And if there were folk in there I can guarantee half of them had rights anyway. When a new game drops and chat is more active then yes, I would have probably come around more. But I also have to take into account that I have a busy life now with a lot of responsibilities. When I first joined this Wikia I was much younger, had a job with few time constraints and had the energy to give my all to this place. Then life got harder and shitter. I've been suffering from a severe lack of energy; these days I go to bed at 8pm because I am SO tired. This means that when I get home from work I have some food, spend some time with Andrew and the kitties and that's all I have time for before my body decides that's that and I need to sleep. Add in to that all the other stuff that has taken place over the last year including being broken into and finding the guy in our living room and moving home because I felt so scared in the flat I didn't want to be there it has been hard.
I'm not trying to justify my inactivity in any way, but I just wanted people to understand that it isn't that I haven't wanted to be here, I have, but I've just not had the energy to do so. I'm surprised I am still even awake now being able to write this because believe me, this is a rare occurance.
I miss you all dearly and I thank you for keeping this place going. I'm just sad that I can't be a part of it.